Saturday, October 10, 2009

Too Beautiful For Earth

"An angel in the book of life
wrote down my baby's birth,
and whispered as she closed the book
Too Beautiful For Earth."

Unknown Author

Friday, October 2, 2009

To My Baby

A little life, a precious pearl
growing within my womb
Maybe a son?
Maybe a daughter?
Can't wait till I see it bloom-
I have a name for you little one
I picked it with thought and care
I saw you with love and tenderness
and saw that you were so fair
I knew you would be a special child
and I had special plans in view
if you were a girl, a sweet one you'd be
if a son you'd be strong and true
I held you and kissed your soft little face
in daydreams I'd rock you and sing
of angels in heaven, and Jesus love
and all of earths sweetest things
I bought you some little items you'd need
and planned you a cozy room
And oh the joy to think of the years
I had to watch you bloom
I could hardly wait till I felt you flutter
and turning with a swirl
And day by day my heart filled with love
for my little precious pearl
But God chose to have you blooming for him
in the beauty of heavens land
And your mother is holding you, in her heart
as though she were holding your hand!
~By Elizabeth Ann

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

God's Way is Perfect!

I believe I have come to terms with my loss and have peace about it. I had to remember that it is not about me, but about God and glorifying HIM and letting HIM have his way no matter what that means. I cannot let my emotions get in the way of that purpose. I gave me heart and life to God and I have never regretted that and will never regret that. He is such a good and righteous Father and though I may not understand, I can trust him- FAITH, HOPE and LOVE- not faith in this world but in GOD, Not hope for the things of this world, but for RIGHTEOUSNESS and PURITY and HEAVEN! Not love for just anything but the LOVE of GOD shed abroad in our hearts. I wouldn't take my baby back even if I could because I KNOW he is in the loving beautiful arms of Jesus and is much better off than with me. And if God saw fit to form in me a little soul for just a few weeks, then praise God forever! I was BEAUTIFULLY pregnant and I would never change that for anything!
I LOVE GOD so very much and know that His way IS perfect!!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Ten Things to Give Thanks For

"In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. 1 Thess. 5:18

Ten things I can give God thanks for-

  1. The four weeks I had to feel beautifully pregnant
  2. That I am a JOYFUL mother of three beautiful, saved and sanctified children
  3. My sweet and gentle husband
  4. Ultra sounds that can give you a picture of your baby to cherish forever
  5. My daughter Felecia driving me to the doctors, making dinner, cleaning etc..
  6. A quiet home in the country to rest in
  7. The cooling of the weather- the whispering winds
  8. Chelsea telling me I am her hero and that she feels like she lost a member of her own family
  9. Blogging that helps me get my mind off the terrible cramping I am having right now
  10. All the love poured out for our family

Thank you everyone for all the love, prayers, concern and sympathy that you have poured out on our family. We feel so very blessed!

Monday, September 28, 2009

The LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away!

"the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD." Job 1:21

My little pearl sprouted wings and flew into the arms of Jesus. What a glorious life-from the womb to the arms of Jesus- to never have to know the sorrows, sin, and heartache of this world. What a blessing!

Monday, September 14, 2009

First Picture of Baby

The Baby is in the middle in the black center. The yoke sack is the round black tinier circle and the baby is the white area attached to it.

I had my initial OBG appointment today and the baby looks good so far. Praise God! When they first looked for it they couldn't get a picture. I thought, "I knew it. FALSE pregnancy! She's gonna tell me there is no baby and you are having a false pregnancy syndrome. But they altered the procedure and got a picture. And OH FOR JOY. Its little heart was beating!!! I will go in two weeks for another picture because it is so early right now.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Saturday afternoon I grabbed a cheap pregnancy test while I was out shopping. It couldn't possibly be that I was pregnant at 41 after nine years of thinking I was no longer able to conceive. But, I had not had a period in almost two months and didn't feel one coming on, so maybe I should just make sure.
I hid the test in my purse and when all was clear I crept quietly into the back bathroom to run the test. As I fumbled to open the box I said to myself, "this is so stupid. You are not pregnant." But I had bought the test. I might as well take it.
I had an instant positive result. I didn't believe it. I rechecked what the positive result should look like. It was true. I was pregnant!
I began to tremble and hit my knees right there beside the bathroom sink. "O my Lord," I prayed, "O My Lord, could it be? Could it really be? O, thank you my God, thank you! Thank you! That you would look upon me in such a way. That you would see fit to bless me so at this age in my life. O My God..."
I was beside myself. It was as if a husband loved his wife so much that he thought and thought of the most beautiful gift he could give her and came and presented it to her as a surprise. It was like the Lord said, "Here is a present, just for you! Just because I love you!"
I thanked Him over and over throughout the day, and I am still praising him and thanking him. Sometimes I cry for the joy of it all, that he could be so good to me. I am in awe and wonder!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Who's That Baby?

When Children Smile
by Mary Evelyn Notgrass
when children smile
the world looks brighter
and hearts, unburdened,
aren't so heavy
when children laugh
the world seems nicer
and problems tend to float away
when children sing
the world sounds better
and eternal things are easier to see
when we become like children
the world looks brighter
the world seems nicer
the world sounds better
and eternal things are easier to see